april '25

> very busy month at work for me, at one point it felt like i was only existing in two places. the theatre and my bed
> think i experienced some depersonalization while getting my lunch during the long run of shifts i had. at one point i looked over my should to see the local underground station and felt like i was brought back into my body and stopped running on auto-pilot
> something that has made a positive difference to my life is setting a shortcut on my ipad to automatically play NTS radio in the morning. what a great way to start the day with music and not be jolted awake by an alarm
> currently my go to snack is grapes and almonds, i like that they are opposites. soft, wet grapes against dry, hard almonds. yum.
> lastly i managed to squeeze in one last exhibition visit this month, which was kinda mid. but i bought some new perfume that i am excited to have as my summer fragrance

media list

read 2 books
> memorial - bryan washington (2020)
> the road to wigan pier - george orwell (1937)

listened to 14 albums plus 604 songs
> panchiko - gingko indie rock
> vegyn, air - blue moon safari electronic“hearing something you're so familiar with in a different way hits different”
> alabaster de plume - a blade because a blade is whole spiritual jazz
> sam gendal, nate mercereau - digi-squires fourth world
> dirty projectors, stargaze - song of the earth modern classical
> floating points - lazarus (ost) electronic “a great soundtrack for me to design this site to”
> los thuthanaka - los thuthanaka experimental “a cacophony of sounds but i couldn’t stop listening to the layers”
> bon iver - sable fable indie folk
> park jiha - all living things fusion gugak
> dean blunt & elias ronnerfelt - lucre slacker rock
> boards of canada - tomorrows harvest idm
> black country new road - forever howlong art pop "aoty contender?"
> cousin kula - vitamin d psych soul
> ras michael and the sons of negus - rastafari roots reggae

watched 14 films (11 were short films)
> the panic in needle park (1971)
> the french connection (1971)
> the bones (2021)
> animated desires (various years) - mubi’s curation of short sexually charged animations. favourites from the collection - maurice's bar, pussy, tooma beaneath the valley of the wild wolves
> long good friday (1981)

other sharables

> two things that i love are london and history, combining them is jago hazard who mainly makes videos about london’s transport. think trains, design, and architecture
> this was a fun piece to read “hating is not trolling. trolls have no philosophical or epistemological underpinnings, they’re just there to annoy people. haters are on an endless pursuit of aesthetic and spiritual beauty and are repulsed when they see something grotesque being worshipped.”
> might have spent far too long swiping on here, but at least my brain didn’t rot

march '25

> march is always the month where i can start to see a light at the end of a tunnel. literally the clocks changed on the penultimate day of the month, and i'm suddenly waking up happy and at a normal time
> the start of birthday season
> having ambitions to build things, which i suppose has manifested into this site
> saw a couple of exhibitions: noah davis, and brasil! brasil! the birth of modernism — took some photos of some of the pieces i liked and will share in photos
> thinking a lot about how i want to take back some 'control' in my life. hope to write about it soon...

media list

read 3 books
> the complete maus – art spiegelman (1986)
> man's search for meaning – viktor frankl (1946)
> down and out in paris and london – george orwell (1933)

listened to 7 albums plus 939 songs
> panda bear – sinister gift (2025)
> cameron winter – heavy metal (2024)
> anthony szmierek – the service station at the end of the universe (2025) "reminds me of the streets ‘original pirate material’ that came out like 20 years ago"
> saya grey – saya (2025)
> lady gaga – mayhem (2025)
> cloakroom – last leg of the human table (2025) "new discovery for me but looking to go through their back catalog after hearing this"
> men i trust – equus asinus (2025)

watched 4 films
> a fish called wanda (1988) watched this so many times as a kid in the 90’s
> the substance (2024) chose to watch this on an overnight shift i was working — not too scary but kind of grotesque
> anora (2024)
> puk nini (1994)

games
> far cry 4 (2014)
> split fiction (2025)

other sharables

> read a few things about online archiving — this is a great piece
> i used last.fm for years, but when itunes became apple music, scrobbling stopped working. discovered musicat, which supports apple music and spotify — signed up immediately
> most of the 939 songs i listened to last month were from kate bush, and this live version of 'them heavy people' was on rotation

post 1

hey, just figuring out how to code. trying to make this look nice and decide what to include on here — maybe like weekly updates, what i've been watching, reading, listening to, just general thoughts and quick notes.

did think to call this "feed" and have it act like my own kind of social media feed, but that's too much work haha.

but i'm gonna continue building this and watching veep. peace...